Beautiful Mosaic of Broken Pieces

I would best describe our world and most importantly the people in it as “A Beautiful Mosaic of Broken Pieces.” None of us are perfect, none of us are whole, none of us come with perfectly crafted edges that have never been scuffed. All of us are beautiful, and crafted to be the people we are supposed to be.

Before Kaylee was born, I was very scared about becoming a parent. I was scared about bringing a child into this broken, scary, and damaged world. I knew I wanted to be a parent one day, but wasn’t sure if I wanted to actually have a child of my own or just help a child that didn’t have a parent to love or care for them. I looked at the world and saw the rough edges and the sharp pieces.

I would tell people I didn’t want kids. I fully believe my mother-in-law had given up on getting a grandchild from Lisa and I, and settled on her grand dogs for a while. (RIP Chico) I was scared because I felt this world was too dangerous to have a child.

In 2004, Lisa and I moved to Nashville, TN for a job opportunity. In 2006. Lisa took a job and meet her BFF Sheila (SHE-RA!) and her beautiful family. We became so close with her family they adopted us and we called them our “Nashville Family” and Miss Joan, Sheila’s Mom, became our “Nashville Mom.” We spent most every weekend with them having family meals or hanging out with them. Just having fun and enjoying life.

Miss Joan would always get on to us about having a child. She would constantly tell both Lisa and I that we would make “such good parents.” But it just was one of those feelings of, “yes, I know, but the world is so broken.”

We lost Miss Joan after only a few years knowing her, but she made a huge impact on our lives. Seeing how she loved her children and grandchildren no matter how big of a brat Sheila was (hehe Just Kidding! Love ya Sheila). But really, showing the love for us, two strangers from off the street that she didn’t know, but accepted into her home as family. It was the truest expression of love that anyone could experience. And not one clouded by the misconception of requirement, as you might feel from your own parents.

When Lisa was pregnant with Kaylee, I would look at the sky and think, “it really does boggle the mind about how everything is glued together.” And if you really think about it for a second. Looking at something as simple in nature as air, if we didn’t have the air to breath, to fill our lungs, our species wouldn’t have survived or thrived as it has. Is it that we have adapted on our part, or was that part of a larger plan? I don’t know, but I do know it’s part of this big beautiful world we live in.

Or think about the exact distance our planet is from the star we orbit. If we were just a bit closer; we, our trees, and other life forms would burn up, or if we were just a bit further away, we’d all freeze. But we are in the so called “Goldilocks Zone” because everything is “just right” for life as it is on this planet.

Those are just a few examples of huge instances, but think about your daily life. Take a look at the humming birds, per science, they shouldn’t be able to fly, but not only can they, they are only bird that can fly backwards.

I ask you for a moment in your quite time, just those few moments before you slip off to sleep or if you can steal away to think about the world at large. Think about it from the “bottom up,” just imagine, going all the way down to the smallest, level your mind can put an image to and how each item interlocks together. Now as you take your minds eye, pull it back slowly and pull that “zoom” out just a little and think about each step, from the smallest grain of sand to the leaf of grass, to the tree in your yard and so on. In your mind think of how all the seemingly random objects, people, and events that have come into your live and created the beautiful mosaic that is you.

As you think about each of these steps, and look at this mosaic that makes you up, pause for a moment and think about a piece of art, a grand masterpiece, hanging in a gallery somewhere. That doesn’t just happen there by mistake. This life can’t be just some cosmic happenstance, there has to be a grand design. A grand architect, a master builder of some sort. Someone who watches over us in good times and bad, dusts us off each step of the way.

Each of us are where we are supposed to be, some in good situations, some in bad. Some healthily living our lives, some sick. Why are we in these situations? I don’t know. Why am I sick? I really don’t know. But I do know that even though the world is broken and the people in it are fundamentally broken. Every time I look into Kaylee’s eyes I see that God is showing me the beauty He has made out of all of the broken pieces around us.

What do you think? Do you think the world is too much of a mess? Let us know down in the comments!

Published by Chris

On April 11, 2019 during my drive home, my head began hurting worse than ever before. Thinking it was just a bad headache, with a bit of nausea I decided to sleep on it. The next morning started a journey that has changed my family’s future. I woke up with vertigo so bad, I was unable to get out of bad for the next 24 hours. Since then, I have been living with 24/7 dizziness. My family and I have decided to start a YouTube channel to chronicle our adventures on how we are living with daily dizziness, raise awareness of our vastly under served and hidden community and still have a fun exciting family life.

2 thoughts on “Beautiful Mosaic of Broken Pieces

    1. While, I agree, it’s a mess, but it’s beautiful. That’s the point I’m trying to make, yeah, it’s not a “cotton candy world,” but it’s still how God intended it to be.

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